When is the last time someone described you as happy? These words stung deep as I read them from a new devotional I had started. I began to think to myself and wonder when someone should have described me as “happy.” I couldn’t even think of a time when that would be the case. I had been so consumed with trying to survive the chaos that we call life and I realized I had been living life with no joy, no hope, constant complaint, ugly thoughts, ugly words and had the audacity to wonder why my life felt like it was spinning out of control. I spewed poison out of mouth and spoke death over everything in my life without even realizing it! “These kids are driving me crazy…..why are my kids so disrespectful?…..life is so chaotic….we never have money……we’ll never get ahead…..it’s fun to think about living in that house but we’ll never own something like that…this world is so messed up….people are so dumb. You get the point. Nothing was ever good enough. I fell into the mindset that life was so hard and this season of life was destined to be awful. Am I the only one? Have you ever found yourself in that same train of thought? Can you think of a time that someone described you as happy? Can you think of a time you described yourself as happy? Let’s dive in together and do some real self evaluation and answer the hard questions and get back on the journey we were meant to walk with Jesus.
Now I’m not saying I have this all figured out because let me assure you, sister, I am right smack dab in the middle of this journey. My hope is that you would walk with me as I share my life and my struggles and that we can make it to the other side together.
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